The Undoing

I lie in agony

Drowning in my own tears
Cursing life's irony
Fighting my own fears

Where is my anchor?
My shore is nowhere near
What I need right now
Is a cure for my tear

Broken and shattered
Wounded and abandoned
My time is now here;
I see my blood everywhere

When I am gone
You might miss me
But you wont know; how it hit me
how the truth undid me.

Why I love my Urdu Language...

Lou urdu se pyar aur angrezi may q likhen? Kabhi socha hai k agar kisi se uska haal pochna ho tou ap kese pochte hain:
" ap kese hain"
"apka kya haal hai"
"apki tabiyat kesi hai"
"ap thek hain"
Aur agar kuch is tarhan pocha jaye laheja badal k tou baat k maani he badL jatay hain.
"tabiyat tou thek hai apke?" (esay lagta hai ghusay se poch rahay houn)
"kya hua apke tabiyat ko?"(tabiyat poch rahay hain yan dabay lafzon may tanz kar rahay hain)
 Aur english may ' how are u', ' how r u feeling today' aur baat khatam.dekha janab urdu may dosre ka haal pochne may ap apna haal bata saktay hain. Lekin janay q hum urdu se bhagtay hain. Humari apni zuban may lafzun aur ehsaasat ka ek waseeh samandar honay k bawajood hum urdu bolna sharmandagi ka baiss aur angrezi may fakhar samajhtay hain. Iske bhi bohat si wajohat hain per jo wajohat hain woh yahan zair e behas nai is lye may wapis urdu zuban ke khobsurti byan karne pe ati hun.

Agar apne kisi se pyar ka izhar karna ho tou jo mithas,gehrai urdu k ilfaz aur sheron may hain woh ratay rataaye i love u may kahan? Mjhe lagta hai jazbat ke akaasi jo urdu k ilfaz kar saktay hain unka koi saani nahi phir chahy woh pyar k hun,chahy nafrat k,chahy kisi k ehsaas aur hamdardi k hun,chahy tanz o mazah k. Ab jo jughten urdu may lagatay hain angrezi may translate krk dekhen.

Apna tou ab yeh haal hai urdu chorro angrezi bhi theek se nahi ati. 3 may na 13 may na suthli ki girha may.is misal k pechay jo kahani hai kya pochi hai kabhi apne barun se? Sochne samajhne ka kaam kaun karay bhai bara mushkil hota hai yeh bhi.yeh bhi nahi malum k ghor-o- fikar ibadat hai. Aur yeh samjhay thay april fools day  aur valentine day na manana naiki aur ibadat k mutradif hai.

Reality of Friends:)

qmobile q55 she mobile review

I have had my eyes on the micromax Q55 Bling set since i saw it in the Twinkle khanna ad. So i finally got the qmobile Q55 she mobile in color pink a month back. And trust me its an eye candy. I was happy to have the white headphones and the pink pouch that came in the box. The pretty pink velvety pouch made my day. Regarding the physical features of the set i guess its like the ladies it targets. Pretty and pink with a very nice keyboard, a reflective surface on the back. The set is a bit senitive, even a slight push of a finger can get the upper part sliding which I found to be a bit of a drawback. And although it seems like it won’t survive any falls surprisingly it has survived a couple of times when it fell on the floor from my hand.  I really like the keys very easy to press but sometimes its hard to read the print in white on the keys but easy in the dark cause of the backlight. I have normal size hands and its easy to use,feels like just the right size.

The display is awesome. Display colors, font size,message writing ,screen resolution is excellent. However you are stuck with one theme but you can change wallpapers as you like. I prefer customizations in cell phones but this doesn’t come with much customization as I would have expected and wanted. Like I can’t edit individual phone profiles nor edit the shortcuts on the keyboard. They remain the same as system programmed. However the main menu key shortcuts can be changed.

An advantage is that its a dual sim set. And the dual sim system is very easy to use. I was always afraid that i would get confused if I had a dual sim set but this set uncomplicates it all. No trouble in this department. You can also choose to keep both sims on or one of the sim on. 

Sound quality is excellent if you are listening to the music player but talking on the phone doesn’t really come that easy. You have to really adjust the set to hear properly and talk on the mic. I have used many sets from sony ericsson, samsung but have never encountered this thing. The set has to be adjusted a bit in this case. And you are suppose to call or talk with the cover open.  Only then you can adjust volume as the volume adjustment fuction is available on the keyboard. The camera also work when the cover is open. Camera quality is average.

All in all its a nice set and everybody have their own prefernces.  I would have been happier if it supported wifi  as it has dedicated button for facebook and msn. Also if it could perform more operations without having to open the keyboard.

Pride ain't recommended

The phrase 'khali bartan zyada kharakta hai' (An empty pot makes more sound) reminds of people who would always go on and on about how good and extraordinary they are; and how everyone else around them is a walking mistake:p Such people would also leave no stone unturned in verbally expressing their pure,selfless and endless love for someone not to mention the complains that their love isn't reciprocated. And when you will see them in action you will realize they are solely motivated by self interest. Their words will never match their deeds. As human beings we champion a certain set of beliefs but we hardly act upon them though we seriously believe we do. Self- praise is no recommendation dear. But i guess you can only truly appreciate two people: dead ones and yourself! We act in particular ways but we would dissapprove if someone else does the same because then positions and situations change; putting us in question:) Isn't dis all hypocrisy or we can hide behind any of our stupid excuses and comfort our minds? 

Then there is another breed of people which is almost extinct sadly. They would never make high claims of their goodness or love. Honestly they don't need to because their actions speak volumes, more than anything else or anybody else. Their small acts of kindness go a long way and touches heart not ears.lol.They have a heart big enough to actually overlook and forgive (not verbally of course)shortcomings of those around them. Their near ones will be singing praises of them while they will continue to love through their wise and caring ways.If you are lucky you will find some people great in intellect or kindness yet they will be completely humble. U know after all the tree that bears most fruit is bent down.